Why the post-9/11 message behind The Harbinger hits home for me—and should be read by every American
My first months in prison were filled with overwhelming emotion and brutally honest questions. “God, why do You hate me?,” I remember asking. Another time I cried out, “Are you there, God?” And at one point, I even questioned: Is there really a God to hear my prayer—and if so, is He trying to get even with me for my sins?
I repented of every sin I could remember ever committing, and for any I may have missed and couldn’t remember! I felt God had left me, or worse yet, wasn’t there at all. At the lowest and loneliest time of my life, I cried out and said, “God, even if You are not there, I choose to believe in You and serve You. Even if I die and just go back to dust, I’m going to serve You the rest of my life.”
After those months of repenting, it was as if God spoke directly to me. He let me know He wasn’t trying to get even with me for my sins. “I got even for your sins on the cross,” He said. From that time on, God let me know that He had allowed me to come to prison so I could get to know Him; my loneliness became a time of solitude and study of His Word. read more